2014 no more complaining. yep no more complaining. lets see if i can do 365 days of shutting it, and making a calculated change instead. i'm all about the 365 day challenges by the way. for example the elevator photos, 306 days and counting. (yeah i know its something i enjoy) but i believe putting an end to complaining will probably be the most difficult challenge to date, because even though i am so sick of complainers and the fact that they are an eternal, buzz f*cking kill; i complain too. [sigh]
i do believe however that this change will be the most rewarding.
when i turned 37 in october, i had a pretty tough conversation with my self that can be summed up in one sentence, "kim you better get your f*cking shit together". so i will add no more complaining as an initiative towards my "getting my sh*t together" goals.
and listen, its not like i'm that far off the mark. i've held great positions, i know what i want for myself out of life, i travel, i live abroad, i have seen more than my share, i know i have a lot going for me, i meet amazing people, i am surrounded by art that can not be duplicated, i know what it feels to be loved…... its not that kind of shit I'm talking about. I'm talking about actualizing my dreams because at this point they are starting to haunt me. about being super kim. optimum kim. kimtastic. kim possible. MF'in KIM. because the truth is, no matter what you have, you will always want more. and I'm not talking about more stuff. i mean more meaning in my life.
ooh sorry this isn't about complaining, i'm talking about procrastination. well maybe i'm talking about both.
so…. the whatever percent of "kim" that is lacking is in my court. and its in my court because instead of actioning, i am complaining about missing this component. but truth be told its mine to have. the world is not conspiring against me. there is no world plan to block me from my dreams and aspirations. the only reason why i don't have it, is because i haven't gone to get it. and i didn't go and get it because while i am complaining I'm procrastinating.
famous words of momma: "accept it, shut up and stay; or don't accept it, make a change and leave".
i guess, I'm choosing not to accept it. and more importantly I'm choosing to not delay in making a change. f*ck it.
mdc
i do believe however that this change will be the most rewarding.
when i turned 37 in october, i had a pretty tough conversation with my self that can be summed up in one sentence, "kim you better get your f*cking shit together". so i will add no more complaining as an initiative towards my "getting my sh*t together" goals.
and listen, its not like i'm that far off the mark. i've held great positions, i know what i want for myself out of life, i travel, i live abroad, i have seen more than my share, i know i have a lot going for me, i meet amazing people, i am surrounded by art that can not be duplicated, i know what it feels to be loved…... its not that kind of shit I'm talking about. I'm talking about actualizing my dreams because at this point they are starting to haunt me. about being super kim. optimum kim. kimtastic. kim possible. MF'in KIM. because the truth is, no matter what you have, you will always want more. and I'm not talking about more stuff. i mean more meaning in my life.
ooh sorry this isn't about complaining, i'm talking about procrastination. well maybe i'm talking about both.
so…. the whatever percent of "kim" that is lacking is in my court. and its in my court because instead of actioning, i am complaining about missing this component. but truth be told its mine to have. the world is not conspiring against me. there is no world plan to block me from my dreams and aspirations. the only reason why i don't have it, is because i haven't gone to get it. and i didn't go and get it because while i am complaining I'm procrastinating.
famous words of momma: "accept it, shut up and stay; or don't accept it, make a change and leave".
i guess, I'm choosing not to accept it. and more importantly I'm choosing to not delay in making a change. f*ck it.
mdc
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